2:06PM - types, first impressions, and expectations

I've had the chance over the past few days to have multiple conversations with a few friends about (what else) boys. While some were the typical "oh, he's cute you should go dance with him" many of them were about the subject of our specific types and what we're looking for in a guy.

One thing that suprised me was when Myesha said we tend to go for the same type. I had never really thought of this but after a few more conversations, I think she's right. This is stranger than you think, seeing as we both swear we don't really have a type.

Types are funny things and here's why:

1. are we talking about just physical attraction here? I'll fully admit I have a type I'm more attracted to when it comes to looks, however that varies too. As my friends know, I have a random assortment of looks that I'm attracted to, as do they.

2. If we are talking about personality, then why do people always say "that guy over there is so your type" How do they know? The guy across the room could be married or an axe murderer, or the perfect kind and funny guy you've always been looking for. There's just know way to know from a glance.

3. That perfect guy may not be so perfect. I recently went on a few dates with a guy who should have been my perfect guy. He was smart, funny, cute, nice, and into me. However I wasn't attracted to him one bit. While this could be simply chalked up to my insanity I think it's better to say it's proof that no one is perfect.

4. Even if you think you know what your type is, you're probably wrong. I've always said (and so have a lot of my female friends) that if I could just find a gay guy who wasn't actaully gay I'd have hit the jackpot. Last night disproved this theory for me. I found out a friend of mine whom we all thougt was gay is actually quite straight. This make me instantly attracted to him. After an hour of hanging out I realized I really just wanted to continue on as his friend.

That being said, I still plan to continue on as the hopeless romantic I am and wait for Mr. Right to come sweep me off my feet some day. Then again, I think I'll hold out for Mr. Perfect Timing because I've met a lot of fantastic people, just at the wrong time for anything to happen.

Current mood: contemplative

11:40PM

Your Score: Merchant of Venice

You scored 43% = Tragic, 58% = Comic, 43% = Romantic, 26% = Historic

You are The Merchant of Venice. Set in the beautiful "city on the sea," The Merchant of Venice is a romantic comedy about a locally prominent sea merchant who agrees to take on a costly loan from a covetous money usurer in order to finance his friend's trip to Belmont to woo a rich and beautiful lady. When the loan defaults however, the merchant's life is at stake, but with the help of his friends, he is saved at the last second and everyone lives happily ever after. What your score tells us about you is that you are most likely a romantic person who is willing to go to extreme measures to help out a friend in need. For this, you are highly regarded and loved by many people. You may be a bit greedy at times, and sometimes you might even get yourself into a little trouble, but luckily you have friends that are willing to help you out in your time of need. We'd certainly help you out if we could.

1:42AM

I really hate it when people make a comment and when they realize they've been heard by the person it was about they add "just kidding" when it's obvious it wasn't.

I confide in my friends because I consider them friends. I expect them to listen and occasionally give advice because I do the same for them. Most of the time this is how things work, that's why I consider those people my close friends. I've recently started to realize that one of my friends isn't as there for me as I thought.

People really need to realize that things will get back to the people they were said about. No matter what, people talk. It has come to my attention that someone I have put a lot of trust into doesn't seem to really care at all. That's a huge blow. I wish they would at least tell me to my face instead of talking about it to others in our group. I confided quite a bit in this person because they were there. They made themselves there and I greatly appreciated that. That one person helped me through a really rough time, they probably helped me more than anyone. I now come to find they are making snide remarks about it behind my back and to someone who is closest to me. I don't know what to do about this. I still feel close to them, but it appears they don't see me in the same way. If my friendship to them is superficial in their eyes I guess I'm glad I know now at least. I just wish it hadn't come to my attention through someone else. I don't know what to do. I feel as if I bring it up I'll just be giving them something else to laugh at or gripe about to others. It seem they take what they know is most important to someone and make it a joke. They don't joke about the thing I can also laugh at, just the things that they know will really dig in deep and stick. I'm also pretty sure I'm not the only one they do this to.

Any advice?

Current mood: hurt

Current music: harry potter 5

3:00PM - my anth class

I have never yet had a more boring teacher... she is also useless. I have tried for 6 weeks to listen and have picked up nothing. Then I thought, maybe I can just read her lecture notes on blackboard. Nope. She posted EVERYTHING as an in-progress powerpoint!!! One of her favorite things to do during films is to point out things loudly so we can't hear the narration and then the film will say exactly what she just told us. Seriously, wasn't she supposed to watch the films first? She finally today just realized that no one could read the maps she puts on the overhead... she still hasn't figured out that no one cares that they can't see the maps.

Best part of todays class though... a girl in the back row informed our instructor that the way she was pronouncing a country name was actually the pronunciation for the Hawaiian word for "whore"

this made the whole 2 hours worth it. That and the fact that it's my only chance to be on the internet right now. I have also started using one ear-bud in my left ear... class is so much more bearable with music in one ear.

Current mood: blank

Current music: muse

10:14AM

So, I really have no reason to post right now... I just really wanted to show off the user icon I just got from Alexa.

Current mood: better

Current music: coldplay (pandora.com)

2:04PM - Dorothy...

So, these are the 6 questions I have to do. I tried going to the library and sadly she's already taken the films and the e-reserves and journals ae no longer on line. Any help you can offer would be greatly appreciated.

Exam 1:

4. A. According to Bruce Lincoln, what are the four common elements in female
initiation ceremonies? (4 pts.) For each element, give one example and identify the
specific culture from which it comes. (4 pts.)
B. Using the material from Herdt's article, discuss how male initiations are similar to and
differ from female initiations? (7 pts.)

6. A. Why does preference for male children exist in rural China? How are gender
differences manifested in naming practices? (4 pts.)
B. What are the basic tenets of China’s one child policy? (2 pts.) Describe at least one
negative effect of this policy on girls/women. (4 pts.) According to Fong, what are the
effects of the policy on urban girls and why? (5 pts.)

8. Describe at least three changes which occur in women's lives cross-culturally as they
enter "middle age." (9 pts.) Describe three specific examples from three different cultures
(not Anglo- American) to illustrate these changes (3 pts.) How do you think Anglo-
American women fit or do not fit this pattern? (3 pts.)

9. Female Genital Cutting (FGC) has caused a huge controversy in feminist circles.
Define the term FGC and its variations (3 pts.) Describe the arguments in the debate.
Include in your answer a discussion of cultural relativism and human rights. (12 pts.)

Exam 2

5. a. Define "kin work" and discuss how it is related to gender (7 pts.), illustrating with an
example (3 pts.) Does this concept resonate with your kin experiences? (3 pts.)
b. How does the film Clotheslines bridge the gap between folk art and domestic work?
(7 pts.)

Exam 3

3. This term we have studied women and men from a variety of cultures. Reflect on what you have
learned about cultures other than your own, using at least 3 of the readings, guest lecture, and/or
films (15 pts.). What gender issues have people in your culture (please identify it) resolved which
others are still struggling with? What gender issues are people in your culture struggling with that
you feel others have resolved? (10 pts.) You should be selective, but support your position clearly by
using class materials.

10:28PM - Dorothy, I desperately need you!!!

Ok so I know everyone can read this but I have no other way of getting a hold of you :-)

I ended up not getting a passing grade in Anth 315 but I emailed professor Silverman and she's letting me write e paper on all the questions I didn't answer on all three essays. This is where you come in. Would you be willing to loan me many notes you have left, and possibly help me write this thing? I'd make you a pie or garlic bread or something else yummy if you do.

Thanks so much.

Current mood: distressed

10:01AM

blah blah blah


I am confused


grrrr

Current mood: tired

Current music: behold a lady - Andre 3000

11:51AM - this explains a lot :-)

You Are 81% Burned Out

You are extremely burned out. You work too hard, and you're not getting the results you deserve. It's time for a life change, as soon as you can manage it. You're giving away most of your energy to something you don't even enjoy.

1:37PM - Is this what growing up feels like?

Last night I made one of the most mature decisions I think I have ever made. I know it was the right decision, so why is a part of me still kicking myself for it? As Tali said, at least I'm not kicking myself for making the wrong decision because that would be even more painful. The thing is, I'm not sure it would have been painful at all. It would have been the decision I've made before and it's the easy choice. I am proud of myself but a part of me wishes the right thing wasn't always the hard thing to do. This time I don't know what the outcome will be, and that scares me. I have some idea but I don't like that ending. I don't want there to be an ending at all, at least not yet. If I had simply done what I always do I'd at least be in control of the situation. Yes, there would be a definite ending to that situation then and I wouldn't like that either but at least I would know what was coming, I could plan for it and guard myself from all of it. I'd have control of the whole thing. This way there's a glimmer of hope inside me that I can't turn off. Isn't hope supposed to be a good thing? Why does it make me want to cry more than I've cried in a long time? I can't stop thinking about all of it and I wish there was a way I could hide away until I see what's going to ultimately happen. Then I'd have a chance to protect myself and prepare for it.

Current mood: crappy

7:56AM

okay everyone, I need a bit of help from as many of you as possible, and it won't take much work on your part at all.

In about 4 hours I'll be taking a math mid-term (yes, in week 9) I;m just asking all of you to send me some good juju or any good thoughts my way 'cause I'll need it.

Thanks!

Current mood: nervous

Current music: we built this city

11:15AM - super creepy

So I had this dream last night that was one of the scariest things I've ever been through, and it wouldn't end. I'm still slightly freaking out about it and since a bunch of you were in it I thought I'd share it to try and get it out of my head.

I don't remember exactly how the dream started but the first thing I remember is me sitting with Danny, Gwenmarie and Charlotte. All of a sudden it got really hot in the room and everything went pitch black. Char get really scared and I got the feeling that something bad was about to happen. Out of nowhere a huge black and red shadow thing shows up pronouncing that it is the supreme evil being (or something along those lines) and that one of us owes him a debt. Char pleaded forever saying her debt was paid and Gwenmarie was apparently to good to ever need to repay anything to him. Danny managed to convince the evil cloud thing that he also hadn't done anything that was evil so that just left me. By this point I was freaking out pretty bad.

All of a sudden, Gwenmarie pulls me out of the room to save me and we somehow end up at the mill house with Mike and Logan. Danny and Char are still there but in another room. We all decide that I'm not allowed to go anywhere by myself and I can only go places with one of the 5 people already mentioned in my dream.

At this point I think I've woken up from my dream and I somehow believe that Mel, Alexa and Jenn are sitting on my bed talking about how much I was freaking out while having this dream. I then fall right back into the old dream.

Now for some reason Bobby and Scott show up to help all of us get to somewhere safe but I've forgotten something in a back room and go get it. As I enter the room the whole place gets super hot and dark again and the evil smoke guy shows up again. He tries to get to me but Gwenmarie, Logan, and Mike all bust in and save me.

My dream ended with Bobby and Scott leading the rest of us down this gravel path and then I woke up...

Okay, if you read this whole thing thanks for sticking with me through my weirdness. The whole thing sounds a little silly when written down but now I'm less freaked out by it.

Current mood: anxious

Current music: 105.5 Bob FM

4:03PM

sitting in the green room eating lunch and waiting for the show to start

realizing this is my last pocket show

I'm glad it's this one

Current mood: calm

1:25AM

9:02AM - so rediculous!

first off, some good news, MY COMPUTER WORKS!!!

It's no longer super slow and the sound works perfectly...Thanks dad!!!

My dad had to go in and completely re-build the entire operating system to just be windows xp and not anything to do with the ACER software that came with my computer. Apparently ACER decided to save a few bucks by not using Microsoft's drivers and instead used their own, this resulted in my sound being all but non-existent and completely unusable. I'm in the process of re-loading all my software, but so far the sound works!!!

The second, slightly less good news is that when I woke up this morning, 5 keys were missing from my keyboard. I freaked out! After freaking out, I searched around and found the keys and the "C" button has some highly suspicious teeth marks in it. Yup, that's right, Nigel's decided that his new favorite toys are the keys from my lap top! (insert more freaking out here) after a few minutes of trying, I was able to pop they keys back on...so all is yet again okay with my computer. Thank goodness!

Current mood: flustered

8:03AM

Merry Christmas Everybody!!!!!

3:05PM - complete randomness

the title for the final Harry Potter book has been released, it's goin got be "Harry Potter and the Deadly Hollows" which I think has to do with Harry being born in Godrick's Hollow and Griffindo's first name was Goderick... my theory is that Harry is a descendent of Griffindor, just like Voldemort is a decendant of Slitherin

okay, my geekyness is gone, sortof

I would just like to say that I really enjoy it when things are convenient...that is all

and yes Kevin, I know that frusterated isn't really an emotion...*grumble grumble*

Current mood: frustrated

5:33PM - stole this

9:48PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5g7zlJx9u2E

12:58AM - fuck

I went onto blackboard and this is what I found out:

even if I get 100% on everything else in the class, there is no way I can pass math 106

fuck